hi bloggie, I dont know who to talk to who to trust anymore ... :) sometimes i really wish you never met soke. Because of her, I lose you. I lose a person who care me the most and someone to talk to. I promised myself not to cry no matter what. But i never thought that keeping yr feelings to yourself is such a hard thing to do. I'm not even your first priority anymore. Best friend lol. I doubt that. You dint even treat me as one. I hate soke. She's the one who replace me in your heart. I hate him, he's the one who made her not care about me anymore. Yes, I'm insecure and i wish i could find someone who will always be here for me no matter what. Who will always love me. Once upon a time I thought I found you but in the end it was just a dream .. :) Dear God, I pray to find a person who loves me for me, who will care about me and would not leave me for eternity. I pray to find him as soon as possible because, I dont know how strong am I, how long can I withstand this lonliness anymore.