Dear bloggie..
The deadline is tomorrow.. Thursday..
I still havent have a decision..still so confused..and so scare. I think about it this whole day. A long time ago, I would clapped my hands, yelled with happiness and maybe even smile for a week like an idiot. Ya..but that's a long time ago. I dont know what to say now.. I finally got what I want and what I tried to forget this whole time just to make you happy.. I want to cry so hard bloggie. I don't know. I dont know about a thing. I dont understand about me, I dont know anything about myself anymore..
What I wish for is not what I want right now.
To me, accepting this offer might make me lose you again.
I really cant bear the sorrow.. its too painful.
Baby..I dont know...I really dont know..
Before that I would be happy because I was selfish but now I care what you think. I know you want me to be happy..but dont forget you are the one I love most.. I want you to be happy too.