Dear bloggie...I'm back again..
This time with alot of confusion and questions to think about...
about the sex stff, the sm..im okay. I really want to be your submissive for the rest of my life..
I mean, I searched it on google and I know its going to be really hard and.. I trust you. I trust whatever you did to me is going to be safe.

Baby....about the second question..do you know how hard I tried to forget about tht?
Do you know how long it was for me to forget all about that..?
The feeling of you hugging me... me in your arms against your warm chest..
The sweetness....the loving you.. it took me half a year to forget all about it. To not care and try to cope with this. And now I finally let go but you try to pull me back again...

Maybe you do understand me..you know I'm scare of last time..because I remembered, kky called you her laopo. And you feel the ' laogong feeling' on her...that time i was still a child. Always sajiao with you and annoyed you, like a xiao laopo ... That's why you like her..and you start to love her..
Is not that i dint trust you tht you wont repeat, but i cant take the risk to lose you. Youre the best thing of my life and all I have that makes me real happy..I cant risk losing you..not again..
I'm afraid to be hurt and I'm not that selfish too...I really cant do it.
I dont want to take anything away from you.....
I...
I'll think about it...
Really confuse right now..
Until Thursday then bloggie..though..
Thanks for choosing me and love me till always..