Dear Bloggie..it's been a very very long time..

It's hard to express my feelings to my phone since the battery is almost flat. So, sorry bloggie. You're taking in my gibberish words tonight no matter what.

April is quite a tough month for me. Im so fucking stressful and so fucking moody. I'm turning worst and you can say that im now the mash up of a bitch and an asshole. I can't believe the once peaceful night is replaced by a  night with tears and nightmares. To be honest, I cry myself to sleep everyday and wake up in the middle of the night, curl under my blanket and cry again, for nothing. My brain's a mad world...bloggie. I'm going mad. I have no idea what am I stressing about. Well, I know half of the reason and i dont think that i'll like to pour out here. 
WAY TOO PUBLIC.

It's been a long time since the last sweet dream & good night sleep..I crave for it..I crave for more than this..

I crave for the things in the past and the things that would not happen again. I crave to forget and stop worrying and of course, to stop thinking too.

Seriously, if I lost my memory one day..how will my life be?

-Silent Tears-

© Amanda Smith

shh...listen don't you hear

I'm crying but they are silent tears

I'm crying on the inside so you can't see

all the pain running though me

I cry for you I cry for me

I cry for the times I can't

so if you listen you may hear my silent tears.

Yours sincerely, 

Me