I am starting to lose myself.. I am starting to forget what was it like to not cry every night before I fall asleep. I forget what was it like to be happy, to love and to be loved. I was the one who made things worse, who ruined our relationship. I was the one who make myself dropped in your heart, who is there to blame..? I know I'm not important anymore, will never be, maybe, that's what you said. But i cant live my life according to maybes anymore.. I was never a good person anyways. I hurt you, emotionally and physically. How can I even make you to believe in me again when I repeat my mistakes again and again. I am selfish.. and you definitely deserve to be loved and treated right, like a princess, you don't deserve someone broken like me. I think you are right, I'll never find or love anyone else in future. I don't deserve anyone. I don't even think that I deserve to live... I lost everyone... even you.. :) At least for once, I'm not being selfish for you anymore.. I thought I have them, my family and my dreams.. but then they disappeared little by little everyday, I should trust you, should know that you are the one who will never leave from the start. But I din't. And you left. Now I know your feeling, I know how it's like to be alone, to have no one and to want to push people away because... because our hearts are so broken that we can never piece them back together like how they used to be.