Trying to find my own activities, trying to remind myself the fact that I cant rely on you anymore. Trying to ignore all the fucked up feelings, trying to wear a fake smile, live a fucked life without you. Trying to forget that you were once mine, trying to act like I'm okay, trying not to text you no matter how much I wish too. Trying not to be tired, not to be disappointed, not to remember the memories, trying to forget the fact that I still love you. But i failed every one of them. I failed.