dear bloggie, I thought of her and max for the whole night, keep waking up and try to fall asleep again, just to keep my minds away from them but apparently I fail. I'm trying to hide my feelings for her now, trying to forget the feeling of loving her, trying not to care about her. I knew I'm making improvements day by day, somehow I'm really glad of it. Dear fishy, never ever show weakness in front of her again, never let your walls down when youre with her. She's moving on too, and there's no way youre going to make yourself fall back in to the trap once again.