We met today :) It's been such a long time since we saw each other.. maybe 3 weeks.. or more? I wonder if you are as happy as I am when I saw you :) I wonder if you miss me as much as I miss you..
At first it's kind of awkward when I got into your car.. I don't know how to react infront of you. Part of me misses you like crazy and urges me to hug you tight and kiss your cheeks, but part of me is scare of the rejection.... so i just stay quiet.. until you touched my hair at the traffic light there... it feels so familiar and warm .. :) And in the car.... I almost kissed you... but at the very last minute I just pulled back.. I was afraid you won't like it.. I was afraid you will push me away.

I thought avoiding looking at you in the fitting room will be the best idea but I never thought that you will come over and kiss me... my heart was beating so fast and my breath became heavier and heavier.. It's just so... incredible .. how my emotions and my feelings reacted when you touched me.. I remember me being shock, then I feel the warmth spreading all across my body.. I remembered smiling while kissing you.. :) I missed every part of you so so much... I missed you being near around me, breathing in your scent, you laying on my shoulder and me smoothing your hair... it all happened in the cinema... and how I wished the movie will lasts as long as it can be..

Dear bloggie, I thought I'm moving on. I thought I'm making some improvement. But sometimes feelings would never change, no matter how hard you try. I guess I truly love her ... :)

....10 years... I promised you that I won't wait for you... :) I'll just go with the flow and listen to faith...
If she really is mine, she will come back 10 years later.. :)
If not, may she finds a guy who truly loves her.... may our friendships remain and may my love for her remains a secret until life do us apart. :)