Dear bloggie, she and I.. we didn't really talk much today.. you won't now how hard isit trying not to click on the chatbox..you wont know how much I miss her. I know that to me, there are no misses in her dictionary.. time passes so fast, it's already the fourth day since we talked clear about everything. Dear bloggie, why does it feel so unreal.. why does it feel like everything is just a bad dream? But i know this time, I'm not going to wake up and feel lucky :) I don't know what am I holding on to these days... This evening I remember seeing a video clip about two girls falling in love and being together. They are both really feminine, there's not a speck of boyish element in any of them.. and they got congratulated by their family, friends and the society.. Sometimes I wonder what will my life be like if she's not afraid of the public's eyes... I wonder what it feels like to be in an open relationship with the person you love..? She's going to be the one and only person that I will ever love in this life..I can't imagine myself to give out that much again to someone else. I promised to move on, and I will.. but I still wish to stay by her side and be there for her as her best friend, best listener and best advicer.. Even if she got married one day, I'll still look after her from far away... :) I know I would never be the person that she needs and wants forever... but I wish she will never forget and regret about our past.. they were the best memories I ever had.. she's the most amazing girl in the world :) I wish you made the right choice.. wish you are happy..