So, I'm heading back to penang tmr.

For the first time, I dont feel excited neither look forward to it. Right now I'm just going with the flow, let the God decides my path, my everyday decisions. I dont know if I had already moved on or nt, but they say that time will heals all wounds. I dont think thats how it works. Maybe I will forget about you and I will think i'm free and I'm not wounded anymore, but then one day, I will meet you again and its going to hurt as much as before. Time dint heal that one.. I willfind myself wanting back the old times. Wound dont ever heals. They just became scars and sometimes they open up. People get used to it but not over it. Even if I'll find someone new someday, I'm still going to miss you.
I was really happy that you did not move on, too. And I thought,' hey, God is giving me a chance to get her back.' How wrong am I. I keep telling myself to stop wishing and hoping for the impossibles but seriously, when did I ever listen?

I regret loving someone like you. I regret giving you my everything. I regret for loving you too much. I dont regret but again, I regret. If we never met, if all of these never happened, I dont think I'll be this broken now. I'm scare of life. It's so creepy that how much stuff changes in a year. It frightens me. What if I started losing people that I care? day by day, year by year. Maybe I should seal myself up again. Make myself not to care about anyone anymore. I cant deal with any heartbreakers ever again. One is already enough. And that one will always be the ghost of everything, one that will haunts me forever.